Am I The Only One?

Where do I even start? I feel like I have so much to say! I haven't been sleeping well at all because my insomnia has been through the roof. So, I'm exhausted during the day (and yes, sometimes I doze off during nap time) but it's not like I sleep all day or anything. So, anyways, I can't sleep for the life of me at night and then I'm tired all day long which then makes for a crabby mommy. I feel awful for my son because I feel my patience go right through the window. It's not his fault I can't sleep but I have no patience for his crap sometimes. He's 2 and yes, sometimes he knows better but for the majority, he doesn't. I can honestly say that I feel like the worst.mother.ever. He's only going to be little for a little while and here I am, trying to just keep my patience. He also hasn't been sleeping through the night because of this awful cold that he can't seem to kick. He wakes up coughing most of the time so he ends up in bed or on the couch with me. Sometimes, I just don't know what else to do...

Braxton hasn't been taking naps lately because he's been sleeping a little later. This is day 2 of no naps and I can tell you right now, he's getting naps from now on. He's such a mean, sassy little boy! I am seriously SO surprised how I even have hair left in my head. BUT on a happier note, he was in the kitchen with my mom (he LOVES to cook and he helps her ALL the time..has his own stool and everything) and he repeats everything. So, they're making dinner and she says "Oh, we need 2 cups of noodles" and he repeats her "we need 2 cups of nooles" 
"Now, we need 2 cups of milk, thank goodness Papa got milk!" and there he goes "goodness Papa got nilk." Ha-ha!! It's those times that I remember to take it all in. He won't be 2 forever. He can be sweet but he really is a sass! 

Heath and I are now talking about adding another baby into the mix of it all. I go on Monday to get my IUD out and although I'm excited, I'm pretty nervous too. How am I going to handle 2 kids? How am I going to love a new one as much as I love Braxton? Will it be harder on us? I feel like we struggle enough as it is. In the end, I pray. I ask God to help us through our issues and through life. I'm nowhere near perfect but I try to be a good mom, sister, daughter, and friend. 

Heath has literally worked all week long-which means he left Monday morning and I won't see him until tomorrow morning. He's a paramedic so he works 24 hours and he picked up a crap ton of extra shifts this week. Although the check/money will be awesome..most of it will go towards bills, I'm sure. He works so hard so that I can stay home with Braxton (& soon a new baby?) I'm forever grateful for that because that's what I always wanted. Heath and I have our difficulties, that's for dang sure, but I think our love will get us through it. We fight and we argue but we work it out. I think I got "stuck" with a pretty great guy, to the say the least.

Anyways, our "announcement" is out, we're going to try to have another baby!! I'm so excited!! Braxton isn't too sure yet. I used to ask him if I could have a baby and he'd say "ok" but now I ask him and he says "no, momma" so it should be interesting. ;) Wish us luck!! =P 

love always
-k