as a mother. I've been exhausted lately, and literally fall asleep until like noon. Why? I couldn't tell you. I have my hypothyroidism but I've been taking my medicine like I should be and everything. My only thing that would sense is that 1. I need my medication increased again or 2. I'm pregnant!! As much as I would love to be pregnant, I would probably freak out a little bit too. We've been 'trying' for a couple months now and not even trying all that hard. heath works a lot so it's hard for us to try to have a baby. Plus, with my bad day today, I was thinking about all the what if's. What if he doesn't get a job with TVA? What if I am pregnant? What if this all doesn't work out how it's supposed? What if, what if..I need Heath to get that job with TVA because it would make out lives so much better.
Anyways, I feel like my patience was so very thin today. Braxton was driving me crazy. I feel like I failed as a mother today. Yes, I love him. Yes, I showed him love (I do everyday!!) but I still feel like I could be better. I don't have someone to tell me I'm doing ok. That I'm succeeding even though I feel like I'm not. I hate that this is how I feel some days. Other days, I'm ok. I don't beat myself up over this kind of stuff. So, why today? Why now?
Does it ever get better?
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